I have some crazy audacity...

Bloody hell this won't leave me...
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I have some crazy audacity...

i suppose i do
and it's likely mostly true
as i kick ass through

to find the the girl i lost years ago

most days i tire from the monotony
i feel mad and sad
emotional and scarred
working through feelings of
inadequacy, paranoia and mistrust
knowingly alone in most of it

perhaps i am an arrogant
something
with blatant disregard for others feelings
but among the thorns there are
roses spread here too

and hey
lets not pretend
that we don't all have feelings
that border on crazy
or irrational
its just
i'm writing it here and you can see

exactly as you read
this is raw
full of feelings
of moments i can't take away
i won't take away

so yes, i have the audacity...

au·dac·i·ty

   [aw-das-i-tee]  Show IPA

noun, plural au·dac·i·ties.

1.

boldness or daring, especially with confident or arrogantdisregard for personal safety, conventional thought, or otherrestrictions.

2.

effrontery or insolence; shameless boldness: His questioner'saudacity shocked the lecturer.

3.

Usually, audacities. audacious  acts or statements.