Inspiration Reigns

It didn't take much but a silly old
movie with heroes of men
heroes of women

basking in the glory that was tonight
realization struck
to my surprise

i haven't lost
she is here
and it IS time
to move from this fog
into the light
where the brightness brings clarity

like lighting it hit
as if there is no other way, it's time for me
to pave
endure the pain for future goals
the ones of past
to bring forth to the reality
of life i hold
now
now

now
scared of what this
all might mean
{scared that the influence of
caffeine
has molded
framing thoughts for minutes only}
instead of strong foundations
meant for building

doesn't matter much the things i do
for me
time will cease regardless

mattering of the things seen
by children
mine...
others...
right and wrong, peace and love, good and bad
struggles to manage, maintain, sustain
while persevering
for children i grow for tomorrow
to see
that
only that
is the matter for the things i do
show, fight, continuing on my plight
save a little bit of the world
through my life

time to move on, ever forward
managing the confusing, strangely peaceful time
where comfort is being busy as can be
to forget she
that girl
that was once me
tearing off the clothes and mask
social pressures and media
task
me with mountains high
to overcome
for the bit of me that I can do
save the world to make it better
if only for a few
My instinctual nature
to hit home
being the driving force
ensuring the seed i leave
continues on without me, without pain
or suffering
maybe rather
fulfilling my own perceptions of my own destiny