I was just trying to be nice, Unknowing Anything and Paranoia

Trying to find words for feeling lost
for feeling alone in a small world of atheists and
skeptics in a small town of believers of everything
that makes everyone feel good
trying to understand why others don't see what i see
why is this clear to me
and not the others
why are we alone in a town so small but a world so big
unallowed to use our voice in a way that might offend
so scared to say something wrong, for now
we have somehow offended
there will be no way of knowing
what our opinion, our choices, our thirst for knowledge
specifically has said
there's no way to ask, it's just not socially accepted
so fuck you, for making me feel unaccepted in this small town
for feeling smaller in this small town,
for never really welcoming us
we were always being judged
even though we didn't know it, or perhaps sort of did
fuck you because you think you you're better than me

Had i been here and you dropped in,
I would've welcomed you, allowed you in
helped you feel safe
to care or just to talk
i would've fucking been here
you are religious, supposed to be
supposed to not be
the mean vindictive one
but i've seen it, seen you, i know it's in you
I'm not real sorry for the words i've cast
I'm sorry they had to be said
If you can't be an adult and get past a difference
whatever it may be
than i've gone on too long and wasted too much time
on you